Breaking the ruler

Ever notice how others seem to judge us by their own yardstick?  If you don’t walk, speak, practice according to their views, then of course you are either totally wrong, sorely lacking in knowledge or just fluff.  If you have deigned to write, voice your opinion or just put out there for public display, invariably there will be someone who either doesn’t agree, wants to tweak how you think, or wants to argue the validity of  your own personal point of view.  Then there are the ones who demand that you share any and all of yourself on said path. If you don’t do it this way, give up any knowledge gifted to you, or constantly speak out on said path..then they want nothing else to do with you.  WTF?!?! So let me get my head wrapped around this.  You want me to either do it EXACTLY as you say to do it, AND to constantly flap my gums about it so that others also do it that way.  Am I getting this right?  Well, who died and left you heir to the throne?      If I don’t do this that you demand, you will have no use of me?  Really.  Kick rocks then.  If all I am to you is a means to an end, a way for others to be deluded into thinking that you as “god” are indelibly correct in all you speak or do, then you better get on down that road and find some other indolent moron to fulfill that role.  It has taken me a long time to learn to be true to who I am.  Some days I’m still a little unsure as to the right direction, but that hasn’t stopped my feet from moving forward.  I am learning that I cannot listen to the noise around me because when I do, I lose myself in the cacophony of  other people’s views.  My world becomes jumbled and filled with flotsam that serves no purpose to me, other than to tilt me off center and we all know it never bodes well for me to be that way..for anyone.  So you can either accept that I will be who I am..a snark filled witch with a path that is intensely personal. Loyal to those I gather near and consider family, loved for who they are, no matter their walk. One who will continue to speak as I see it..even if that opinion is different than yours…that is what makes us interesting.  I cannot worry that what I say or do will hurt your feelings.  This isn’t about you.  It’s about me and for finally realizing that we all are different, have different ways of coming at things.  It’s about breaking the ruler and not worrying about “coming up short” according to others definition of who I am.  I know I’m not the only dealing with this after conversations with others, but now is the time of year that I do this type of reflection and I am finally strong enough to stand up and say to those cynics, detractors, disparagers, and general asshats.  Fuck you…and everything that makes up you..your path, your dress, your speech…in general YOU.  I don’t need you to validate me or anything I do.  And on that gem of a note…I bid you au revoir, beannacht, orevwa, good riddance, kick rocks.

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